Chapter 21 p17 – Confidence
Jul26
(THOOM.)
Jany: (GASP)
Kara Lynn: You did it! Ooh, for a second there you looked so commanding!
And you didn’t break me, see? And don’t I look pretty with a bit of color in my cheeks!
Jany: I — It’s really okay that I liked that?
Kara Lynn: You’re not enjoying the idea that I don’t like it?
Jany: Of course not!
Kara Lynn: Then it’s more than okay ♥
What do you want to do next?
Jany: I want — I want to get this hair cut short!
And then I want to smack you again, and then kiss it better.
Then I’ll put on a nice collared shirt and — and some sensible trousers!
Good on you, Jany. Seize control where and when you can. But remember, aftercare isn’t just important, it’s mandatory!
*Dials phone*
Hello, Hetero-Help Line? Yes, I’d like to know what exactly just happened, was this a good thing or just shock and emotion overwhelming reason?
This one’s not a gay or straight thing, just a healthy-BDSM thing. Watch how it plays out to see if it’s good…
Erin, is it okay if I’m feeling a little uncertain about this? like, Jani was full “This is Bad!” (when discussing other people engaging in BDSM) to “this is okay” (when she did it and Kara approved) really quickly. I mean, it means a lot to have an accepting partner, and I get that, but it feels somewhat jarring to do that about face so fast. Of course, this is a very quick scene, so, maybe we’ll get some better feel for how this worked in Jani’s head in the next few pages/chapters, as Jani works it out herself? I trust you, and you haven’t let me down yet, but this trooper is feeling uneasy about this maneuver (I am perfectly fine with this relationship, as such. you’ve been foreshadowing something like this very nicely – it’s paradigm shifting without a clutch that has me reeling XD)
There’s a difference. Kara-Lynn is both her being and her girlfriend, and of course, she’s tied into her emotions and desires, she can be honest with Kara in a way she can’t with anyone else. And part of her issues were that she was at least partially aware of these desires in her deep down, but was repressing them and denying them so adamantly and condemning them outwardly. Right now, in a moment of stress she’s forced to confront them, act on them, and in return, Jany has gotten nothing but acceptance and love.
TL:DR?
She kind of HAD to deal with it right now with the one person she trusts and can be completely honest with, and that person is accepting and loving in response.
Yeah, no – I get that. It’s definitely a natural bent, and I’m fine with that. I just find it strange that Jani didn’t even question her internal shift. Kara-Lynn knew it was what Jani wanted, and is offering a degree of support that is unparalleled, but it is often very hard for a person to break a habit, or turn a certain way of thinking around. Jani has been so adamant about being opposed to BDSM (maybe in denial of interest?), it feels weird for her to just accept that she wants to engage in it.
Reading over it again today, there is some struggle, but it doesn’t quite feel like “enough,” I guess. Not that I have any right to say what “enough” is, and it does vary from person to person. But, I’ve seen in so many cases that, just because someone is inclined to want that form of relationship, doesn’t magically give them the confidence to pursue it. Kara-Lynn is going to be an immense help there, but it’s still something Jani has to come to herself. I could be wrong – this could be something Jani was fighting so hard to oppose, because t was so close to the surface, and she had thought about it a lot more than we saw, and this all makes perfect sense…but, that’s how I feel.
Fair enough. That was my interpretation of it. Also Jany’s probably not dealing with the potential outcome of it right now, she’s focusing on the momentary high and joy of acting on it, enjoying it and getting complete and utter exuberance from her partner in return. She’s probably going to take time to grown into it, learn the lingo and rules, but right now she’s just smacked someone who wanted to be smacked, they both enjoyed it and that’s all she cares about right now.
That someone was able to say this–“Right now, in a moment of stress she’s forced to confront them, act on them”–means my fears that Jany’s BDSM experience is off to a bad start, has been put to rest. ^_^ Boy am I even more vested in Jany and Kara-Lynn’s relationship now. DDD:
Things are pretty fast and chaotic in Jany’s head right now. Rest assured that she has plenty more flailing and processing to do — much as it would be entertaining to have her walk in on the next page as Confident Leather Domme Goddess of Self-Assurance….
Yay! Knew I could trust you. <3 you Erin! <3 you so hard! I do like that Jany can think so quick when her head is in chaos.
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though, you might use Confident Leather Domme Goddess of Self-Assurance Jany as a patreon reward XD
Have I mentioned how reading these webcomics shattered so many things I used to think about relationships and sexuality?
I would just like to take a moment to say: “Yay!”
Full disclosure, I stopped reading this comic a while back. Actually right when we first got to see Jany really freak out over hearing about BDSM from Bianca. That, followed up by a few weeks of a flashback storyline to the donkey which didn’t interest me finally drove me away from the comic for a bit. I kept it in my feed though, and checked in occasionally to see if it might pull be back in because there were certainly moments I liked in the comic.
Today I checked back in and I’m very glad I did. Seeing Jany finally grow up a bit is really nice, and it looks like I’ll have to catch up on the comic again and start reading it once more. Jany has gone from a character I wanted to like but hated, to a character whose future development I’m really curious to see, all rather quickly.
Sorry for the long post. I’m not the sort of person to whine and tell a webcomic author when I’m done reading their comic, they hear that way too often. However, they don’t usually hear when they manage to regain somebody’s interest, and I know that kind of positive response can be nice to hear. Well played Erin. :)
Aw, thank you, and welcome back!
Jany is very dear to me, but then I’ve always known what’s going on in her head and had some idea of where her character arc is headed. And it’s not the kind of development that can take place overnight. Which means y’all get stuck reading about her bratty teenage angst in the meantime.
She’s getting better! And will keep on growing and learning as this arc barrels onward.
I did previously have the impression she might eventually become likeable as she is now, but it was very hard to slog through that bratty teenage angst.
I’m glad to be back, and looking forward to seeing how everything progresses. :D
Welcome back!
the next time someone says slapping gives them erections
I’ll think of this
And that was Jany’s first introduction to the world of kink.